another friday night...

How will I compensate for all writing waiting here for me?

Space and Time -can we meet in space and time? Reflections after having watched "The Lake House"

shabbat by night....

And the story goes on

Un lugar nuevo - Casa de David y Olga

Moving to a new place after Guate-Linda ↦ Guate-Mala

Shabbat, Szabes ...

May the Lord's approval be resting on you and may he give you peace.

Numbers 6:36

These are the last days of my stay in Guate-Linda and within final I am experiencing great change of air pressure and blood circulation in my veins.I guess this is the very first day in Latin America when I stayed in bed almost whole day- my bones are aching without break and had something in a form of fever

By rainy night...tropical depression "ida" on the spot

He heals the brokenhearted

and binds up their wounds. (Psalm 147:3) 

La noche de Halloween / 31.11.09/- missed event on my blog-:(

Sun through the clouds.../J.E/

The heart-cry of every soul is for intimacy with God. For this we were created and for this we were rescued from sin and death. In Ephesians, Paul lets us in on a little secret: We’ve been more than noticed. God has pursued us from farther than space and longer ago than time. Our romance is far more ancient than the story of Helen of Troy. God has had us in mind since before the Foundations of the World. He loved us before the beginning of time, has come for us, and now calls us to journey toward him, with Him, for the consummation of our love.



When I read these words for myself a couple of days before - I started to question my love towards Him in comparison with the LOVE He is so readily offering to me every minute... It is just I am too lazy, too thought occupied, too out of track, or too astray...and too independent to come closer and be taken into by His arms...


Are we really ready to follow our deepest desires of our hearts? Have we got enough courage to desire the impossible? What is the thing I dug so deeply within the layers of my heart that I find so embarrassing to re-discover now? 

The real proofs of your hearts desires you should look for in your longings and aspirations.You have to start listening to the deepest elements of your own biography /Gerald May/ 

 If you want something very badly, let it free.."Dejalo"-as they say here. And it will come, changed with deeper conviction of your inner self , re-discovered and more mature and more beautiful you have ever dreamed before... It is what happening to me now... when I left things behind, leaving my worries and life-time ambitions to prove others and or to myself that after all I am worthy of something...

Through the joy,which is solemnly located only and only in Him, God cures my false desires...What does it mean looking constantly for joy of Him in my life? In some Paul's letters we can read- /paraphrase- " Give everything to Him with thanksgiving , in weeping of your hearts offering yourself to Him/

I am beginning to learn living His sheer joy and be thankful every day for what He brings to me here through people, their dreams, wishes and their help-yes, help /even though they are not able to realize that/ they need so much considering me to be " de muy lejos, de pais de Polonia"from another world but hoping I can make a difference in their lives. I guess I can.

Yo creo yo puedo ser un factor de cambio. Es dificil pero no imposible.

Gracias...

Las chicas de Holanda -:)

A trip to Atitlan with Marie...

La diversion con Cezar

Los Brilletas durante el Dia de los Muertes...

Anyone could ask what kites have in common with All Saint Days here...When for the fist time I could hear about this tradition here, China crossed my mind with their big dragons like flying kites celebrating the New Years Eve on the streets of big cities...but here en la tierra de la cultura maya?

Czech Marie and her story - journey to Panajachel

Into the West...from Central Europe brings me to the heart of Maya land

Lay down your sweet and weary head

Night's falling
You've come to journey's end
Sleep now and dream of the ones
who came before....
They're calling from across
a distant short

Why do you weep?

Yes, I have answered this question for myself last night
and formulated my wishes, desires, dreams above the challenges and finals
I want to achieve
and stopped weeping as I saw HOPE of my life retransformed
H- humility
O- openness to the new and unexpected
P-persistence
E- equlibrum

Mis cumpleanos en San Miguel Duenos 12.00-18.30

It was an amazing day full of surprises and I would've never imagined that there is something waiting for me in store . God's gift of care and love I was offered nearly brought me to tears...I was speechless in awe of God's Love and Blessing and of getting the answers I have been waiting for the last 13 years from the lips of a person I considered to be the last one to tell me this in the way he did...

What does your heart need? In some sense it’s a personal question, unique to our make-up, and what brings us life. For some its music, for others its reading, for others they must garden...

Yet there are some things all hearts need in common. We need beauty; that’s clear enough from the fact that God has filled the world with it, as he has given us sun and rain.



 (Psalm 104:15) 
We need to drink in beauty wherever we can get it – in music, in nature, in art, in a great meal shared. These are all gifts to us from God’s generous heart. Friends, those things are not decorations to a life; they are what brings us life.

Rescuing the human heart is the hardest mission (J.E)

The dilemma of the Story is this: we don’t know if we want to be rescued. We are so enamored with our small stories and  we are so bound up in our addictions and our self-centeredness and take-it-for-granted unbelief that we don’t even know how to cry out for help.

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Like a woman bound to an affair from which she cannot get free, like a man so corrupted he no longer knows his own name, the human race is captive in the worst way possible—we are captives of the heart.

Their hearts are always going astray. (Hebrews 3:10) 

It is not enough to merely speak of love with our words. We must show it with our lives

Czech Marie and lost passport

Empezamos - la graduacion de Jahir a las 9.30 por la manana por supesto...

Quien es Hudiel? Quieres una cuenta? It will be a play in 3 acts- but give me an hora chapina:)

Zaczne po polsku, bo ucieknie mi cala historia, ktora bylaby swietna kanwa do scenariusza na sztuke w trzech aktach albo raczej w trzech odslonach. Hudiel jest niezwykly-potrafi doprowadzic mnie do lez...ze smiechu, jest tragikomiczny i nie zdaje sobie z tego sprawy:) , jest groteskowy i pelen roznych dziwacznych obaw-a przedewszystkim nie radzi sobie w relacjach spolecznych...z kobietami, mezczyznami, czy to obcokrajowcy czy "local people" -:) co jest dosc smutne gdyz nie jest nastolatkiem ale "in his mid -twenties"....Wraz z Aurita moja nauczycielka mamy rozrywke do rozpuku ilekroc Hudiel wpadnie do szkoly z nowa propaganda (czytaj po hiszpanski ulotkami biznesowymi:) i wda sie w prowokowana przeze mnie rozmowe...

Chicken bus ride -very entertaining experience of loads of here

Na arene wkracza La Habitad por Humanidad

Don't dream your life, live your dreams...

Freedom, Libertad, Wolnosc...Ucieczka

Cadena de jade de mi desenio

Mis botas de montar

Tiempo y espacio conmigo

Jocontenango y las frutas

En el camino a Los Pastores

San Lorezo excursion

La Iglesia de Cristo La Vida Verdadera Ministerio Ebenezer

Die Falscher

"In "The Counterfeiters," those cauterized features and the talent behind them have been put to the test of playing Salomon "Sally" Sorowitsch, the finest banknote forger in pre-World War II Berlin. There's a back story to Sally we never hear. We know he's originally from Russia and that he's a trained artist. We know the Great War was bad for him and that, in his words, he "had a family, once." The face does the rest, shoving sympathy away.

I finished watching this film just a couple of hours ago and I am under its impression.It was in German with Spanish subtitles and gave me great joy in terms of vocabulary extension in those two languages. The film put so many questions in my mind related to Holocaust issues,Operation Berhard the problem of collaboration with the Nazis and simply survival.

The memory of keeper's daughter

Here comes Cezar -na scene wchodzi Cezar

JuanCarlos -el maestro con la pasion

Lipe y yo discubrimos la historia del Convento de Las Capuchinas

Frida - :)

cuentas sobre la gente nueva

Dona Matilde llege a mi vida con su consejos, cuentas catolicas, perpetual correciones de las lecciones de mi profesora apriopiada..

el dia de los barilletes:) estoy muy feliz 2009/

who is Edwin Vega?

Life in Guate-Linda. Is Guate-Linda really linda( bonita)? or rather mala ( read bad in Spanish?) como Guate-Mala? Pun on words.Let's have fun, qrotesque, farse and tragic moments observing the school business.

a venta de mi persona?

Why anyone's little brain might ever crossed such a greedy thought to put on an auction the life of a sweet gal like me:)?
Slavery and selling people seems to be somewhere behind us in obscure past of other countries / at least not Poland or I am very intellectually challenged/ but it happened ...and it happened to me.The STORY is long enough through seemingly some ups and downs, twists and turns and my final leaving this place very soon ... but let me start from the very beginning...

un gran lucha con los chicos guatemaltecos/imprudents/

"Kosci zostaly zrzucone" jak powiedzial by Cezar-:) a jak to bedzie po hiszpansku i angielsku? Lacina zastapi wszystko-:)

El apostol viene... el dia de La Revolucion

por la noche en Antigua en mi dormitorio

Hard night time- listening to American's radio station from Chicago with the mix of the best classical, pop and Christian pieces... learning some Spanish words simultaneously...and trying a composition in Spanish on "la cultura", "el volcán Pacaya" y "todos mis aventuras pasados meses"

However I am still not able to sleep so let's have some more of reading...

"True strength does not come out of bravado. Until we are broken, our life will be self-centered, self-reliant; our strength will be our own. So long as you think you are really something in and of yourself, what will you need God for? I don’t trust a man who hasn’t suffered; I don’t let a man get close to me who hasn’t faced his wound. Think of the posers you know—are they the kind of man you would call at 2:00 A.M., when life is collapsing around you? Not me. I don’t want clichés; I want deep, soulful truth, and that only comes when a man has walked the road "

I am experiencing now kind of aggression towards my person at school from the side of "los duenos nuevos" and feel a bit uneasy with what may happen next. After all I am the foreigner here ,miles away from home, oceans apart from family and friends back in Poland and I want to stay firm to execute my rights, which in this country ( as anyone who might have studied a bit "la situacion politica") may seem like a great absurd , total tonteria, futile wishes etc... Who is by my side in it? I guess I just have a silent support of anybody who suffered because of Edwin's attitude and decisions but NOBODY speaks a word, does anything because of fear, potencial loss of the job or just this kind of general behaviour which has been practised for at least 36 years due to "la guerra interior" in Guatemala...

We will see what the future brings...

La Ciudad Vieja

"There is no good prayer without real genuine desire"

?Que eran los deseos de la gente indígenas  cuando El Obispo llego a Guatemala para evangelizar y educarlos?Muchas luchas y  la total incomprensión ?Que fue su impresión de la gente con la cultura maya allí? Que los faltaron? El cristianismo? Mas fe? Muchas factores para pensar y discutir... Los coloniales y los conquista- dores generalmente robaron la cultura maya de los indígenas y introdujeron después mucho caos...

Looking for good things in life

Refuse to be average. Let your heart soar as high as it will. /Aiden Tozer/

Another day has come - Re-reading all the time J.Eldrege and his Journey of Desire I ponder upon my own life and my ideals and I miss so much wisdom of my next step- :) Every day seems to be filled with so many activities, observations and the needs of local people that sometimes I feel so lost -where I should be God right now? I guess at the place where I am living in ...immersing totally in Spanish and the beauty of this language and looking for some answers or rather waiting for them in hope He will reveal them in the time most proper for me to comprehend... 

Sometimes I struggle with myself, sometimes I find myself in a total tranquility and harmony with my inner being. Ups and downs, thin and thick times make me more resistant to unexpected.... For many it might seem like a cliche but what breaks you and kills you makes you even stronger and you thrive down there at the bottom of your heart as you see things you have never seen before and you put on yourself a totally new perspective...

I want to make a difference at least in lives of some people here - a student who can't afford to pay her English classes by giving her my time , Jahir's future education by sponsoring his private school next year, his graduation outfit, making for him things possible he couldn't have allowed himself to dream of, for the time being cooking for Edgardo as his jobless and hungry, helping Aurita with construction of her new house and many more...

Now I am thinking how to economize my budget to be able to pay for Eliza's doctor's visit and her recovery after the mugging she got the other day...

Spa-resort

Santa-Teresita el viaje

miércoles 23 agosto,2009

Este día decidíamos juntos con Meggy  a viajar a otro lado para tener un día libre y descansar fuera de Antigua( Megg es mi amiga norteamericana que estudia también en Guate-Linda)Eso fue un poco diverdido porque mi maestra de español -Aurita-una persona muy amable( confundió el día de su cumple anos )- cumpleanos son muy importantes en Guatemala, recuerda por siempre por favor:)! y quería cambiar los fechas de mi lecciones entonces yo también quería organizar otra cosa para mi.

El día fue muy estupendo con mucha calor , sol y podía tener una ducha del sol, nadar en los baños termales, tomar un masaje de mi cuerpo y cara y disfrutar mi vida mucho kilómetros de mi país , de Europea...

guate-linda -la escuela del espanol

guate-linda,
originally uploaded by zena74.

Amigo de Guatemala-Edgardo-:)? Como es la vida en Guate-Linda? Podemos ver en el futuro-ahora a mi me parece que todo es bien aunque yo puedo observar las situaciones que son muy difíciles para juzgar y tener una buena valuación -no, en general- mente a mi no me gustan un poco y necesito tener un poco tiempo para defenecer que persona es crédula y que mienta mucho...

nuevo tipo de mi vida

Soy muy interesante si puedo tener el tiempo suficiente allí para escribir notas sobre mi vida en América Central; hoy es El Día de Independencia y  hay muchas actividades en el centro de la ciudad - ruido y agua-  vamos a ver por la noche:)-  este día yo decidí empezar a escribir mis observaciones de la vida de los guatemaltecos allí y mi vida entre ellos y de que manera puedo responder a diferentes situaciones con stress o conflictos...

Appendix-:) 11/07/2009

I am discovering that every day I can find "un poco tiempo" for writing a couple of thoughts in my notebook/draftbook/diary- yes...I do have like four different "cuadernos" here to put my notes there or jot down new word, Spanish idiomatic expressions or just a couple of sentences I want to remember by heart for some purposes in the future..