Hard night time- listening to American's radio station from Chicago with the mix of the best classical, pop and Christian pieces... learning some Spanish words simultaneously...and trying a composition in Spanish on "la cultura", "el volcán Pacaya" y "todos mis aventuras pasados meses"
However I am still not able to sleep so let's have some more of reading...
"True strength does not come out of bravado. Until we are broken, our life will be self-centered, self-reliant; our strength will be our own. So long as you think you are really something in and of yourself, what will you need God for? I don’t trust a man who hasn’t suffered; I don’t let a man get close to me who hasn’t faced his wound. Think of the posers you know—are they the kind of man you would call at 2:00 A.M., when life is collapsing around you? Not me. I don’t want clichés; I want deep, soulful truth, and that only comes when a man has walked the road "
I am experiencing now kind of aggression towards my person at school from the side of "los duenos nuevos" and feel a bit uneasy with what may happen next. After all I am the foreigner here ,miles away from home, oceans apart from family and friends back in Poland and I want to stay firm to execute my rights, which in this country ( as anyone who might have studied a bit "la situacion politica") may seem like a great absurd , total tonteria, futile wishes etc... Who is by my side in it? I guess I just have a silent support of anybody who suffered because of Edwin's attitude and decisions but NOBODY speaks a word, does anything because of fear, potencial loss of the job or just this kind of general behaviour which has been practised for at least 36 years due to "la guerra interior" in Guatemala...
We will see what the future brings...
